the times..

20-I stare blankly at the question paper..not knowing how to do and how to start even.

18-I look at that someone and wished that she was mine but in the end I discovered that I am just another one of the long line of normal guys attracted to her.

20-I look at that someone and just wanted to tell her how I feel about her but unsure of whats gonna happen.

20-I slugged myself out and get grades that are oh-so-disappointing.

20-I called back to home just to find out of everyone is well.

20-I met with failures and I was the one who picked myself up from the dust and from the dead.

18/19/20-I suffered injury when I was having fun on the football field.

19-I mourn at the death of my uncle and my grandparents and my neighbour..in fact I am beginning to be numb toward emotions at funerals.

19/20-I await the results of my mum's latest CT Scan anxiously.

I guess I have become accustomed to all these..I would be even if I am not supposed to.

It is the mental strength that comes with years of experience.

reflections

with every passing paper, i realise that He is always in control, and that He gives me the peace at heart I need to overcome nervousness before entering the exam hall. The times that I have screwed up or did silly and careless mistakes only serves to remind and make me realise not to trust only on myself but that everything is in His hands.

dad has returned home from operation and is resting well at home.

sis just started her new job.

my studies will be better than last sem.

I have a bunch of great people around me in NUS. Or else life here will definitely be a shitpile.

I have nothing to worry about.

The key to happiness is to look at things from a positive view .. things could have been worse. That has definitely put me on a lighter mood for the whole sem as compared to the last one.