Monday, December 8, 2008

Of observations

I was listening to Clinton's speech made recently at the capital of my home country. It was telecasted on satellite television.

In true American style (and accent), the speech highlights the usual ideals of mankind. i.e: equality, meritocracy, the fulfilment of personal dreams and the lot. He mentioned how Barack Obama's election as President of the United States of America signals that the USA is ushering in a new dawn where racial equality is at its peak (at least in the USA).

Upon saying that, the crowd, full of politicians and businessmen clapped their hands. Some even cheered for him.

But the reality is, I am not exactly convinced by their actions. Were they just intentionally getting a piece of the action or really agreeing with the words of Clinton ?

I detect fakeness.

Because I know, ultimately the country's policies will not cease to end in the near future. And what I was witnessing were perpetrators and beneficiaries of the protectionist policies clapping their hands at something against their political ideology.

Pretense pretense.

On the same topic, The Star and Malaysiakini were highlighting the different excerpts from that exact Clinton speech. Go figure. I think most educated readers would know why.

On another note, please take a look at what I found on Channelnewsasia:

Wife of former NKF chairman pleads guilty to money laundering


For those who do not understand Singapore, who says corruption and financial misdemeanour are down to zilch in Singapore? I reckon the Marketing Department of the Government of Singapore is doing a bloody fine job of projecting too clean an image of Singapore to foreigners.

P/S: The term "home country" is up to the interpretations of the readers. Of course, I am bloody sure all of you would know which country I am talking about. Honestly, I changed the exact names to what they represent in this blog post, for fear of IS@ 's prying geeks.

Sunday, April 20, 2008

Sprained ankle

7:51PM 10/5/2008
By the time I am this update is published, I already swam for 2 consecutive days. The funny thing is, the ankle feels a slight niggling pain when I am swimming like a frog ( I mean frogstyle ), which is supposed to be the least strenous stroke. The niggling pain ( pain is actually too much of a description ) is felt when I kick outwards. However, when I am doing breaststroke, there is no pain at all. Also played a bit of futsal just now, wasnt any pain at all when I was running. I guess my ankle is resurrected! (at least 95% lah) =)


A very good pic of how the human ankle looks like.

Upon pressing my ankle on the front and the sides, I felt pain when I pressed my ankle on the front part, and almost none in other parts. Swelling is kinda subsiding now. According to my best and logical estimation/diagnosis (professional term), my anterior inferior tibiofibular ligament is damaged.

Just my luck to have a sprained ankle exactly a week before my first finals paper.

But touching the swollen part is kinda fun though, its like a swollen water bag but made of human skin. I might just make it one of my hobbies to ease my boredom as I am stuck in my room with immobility issues (and mugging hard for exams). The texture is one of a kind. :P


9:46PM 20/4/2008
-able to walk more properly, as proven when I walked/trudged my way to the shower cubicles.
-more prone to let more weight rest on my right leg. Upon doing that, not much pain at all. That means, slowly but surely, the body is overcoming the psychological barrier of WeightOnRightFootophobiatitis.
-having secondary thoughts of seeing the doctor......
more updates to come.

1:14AM 21/4/2008
-upon chatting with a friend, I discovered that it takes about a week for a sprain to heal.
-joked with a friend that my right feet looks like a German pork trotter.
-I can still joke about it, not bad.
-The "trotter" is holding up well after walking to the fountain and back to my room, a total of 2 flight of stairs and walking distance of about 300?m. It's doing fine. I think.

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

"Iran So Far" on Saturday Night Live

SNL - Iran So Far

A spoof making fun of current Iranian president, Mahmoud Ahmadinejad in the classic American way. Please do a Wiki search about him and you will understand why Americans just love making fun of people like him.

Freaking hilarious. The lyrics are a bit unclear but a google of "SNL Iran So Far" lyrics will suffice. :)

When will Malaysian domestic television channels start broadcasting funny stuff, instead of showing Chef Wan almost everyday?

Sunday, April 6, 2008

song in my head

This particular song has been always jogging in my head these few days and I have no idea why.

It is not as if I need to apologise to

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

i need more time.

things to do:


*ME2135 FLUID MECHANICS (CA on 3rd April)

to be done:

*MKT1003 PRINCIPLES OF MARKETING group report (left about 60%)
*GEK1506 HEAVENLY MATHEMATICS group project (left many loose ends to tie up)

and of course, mugging for finals.

need more time. argh.

post exam:

*NUS Student Ambassador Program (I am in charge of the Johor branch, still not sure of its reponse yet)

*10 day part time job at RM80/day, helping out at a Dodgeball Roadshow to be held at 10 private colleges in Malaysia.

tentative: working part time to earn more money in Singapore as the search for an internship wasn't successful.

wish to: drop 7 KGs this holidays. An evil workout plan has already been devised. *rub hands with glee like a witch guarding her potions*

Friday, December 7, 2007

Three semesters on

I still dun think NUS is the place for me.

Competitive system here takes my life away from me, in both senses.

Exams are just a pain in the ass I have to face every sem.

I am not weak. I just do not like the way somethings are going around here. It irks me too much. It is not that I am inferior to anyone. I just dun enjoy this kinda life.

It is not that I am not destined for success. Success for me might come in other forms other than academics. Congrats if your CAP is higher than mine, just dont come and chuan in front of me this coming Christmas. If my feelings are still taken into consideration.

So what if exams are over? Another semester of complete chaos lies in front of me.

Sometimes I feel that some people around me do not understand me. I am not a complicated guy. I am not a two-faced asshole. I would despise myself if I am one.

I need to get a hold of myself before I can even consider taking care of another girl. Contrary to what many girls think a guy loves, I do not need someone who is submissive to my every needs; at the end of the day everyone needs their own personal space. I love a girl that speaks her mind, is opinionated, but puts her point across with enough finesse; essential quality for good marriage. I love a girl who cares enough about herself to dress well.

I should have known better than to let you go.

I should have known better than to allow myself to be blinded for a whole semesster and fall in love with someone else.

Too many should haves, too many 'if i did it...?'s.

Friday, November 23, 2007

Post exam trauma (kinda)

Tomorrow is Fluid Mechanics day..i dun understand why I still feel unconfident even as of now....

Gone through past years and found them OK. but when got the solutions from William realised that those easy questions actually had a lot of things hidden in them. It really sapped my confidence away from me. He said that those questions are meant to separate those A grade students from the rest of the field. After studying so much for Fluids the whole semester, I still do not have the knack of solving those questions.

It is like the great wall of china being hit by a nuclear bomb. Feel kinda lousy now.

Then had a bout of dizziness just now and had to sleep. I think it is because of the kills!!!

I am a slow learner, in terms of dealing with stress.

I will just let God do the rest tomorrow, as it is all in His hands, it is His plans for me, and His hands of Grace will surely guide me out of any difficulty in life. I know I have tried my best, and shall have no qualms over whats going to happen tomorrow. No point overstressing myself now.

By the way, I am listening to a lot of Dido songs just now. Tried to download a few songs just to rejuvenate my mood, and dunno why my fingers just typed Dido when I searched for songs in esnips.

University life makes me appreciate some creature comforts that I had always taken for granted; in other words, I never felt their significance in this manner before this semester. Even a shower now feels so good. A nap now is much more rejuvenating than before. I finally understood why my sister take such a long time in the shower. A good song playing from the laptop is soothing and helps to destress.

I was reminded of something in the shower just now. Suddenly James' words spoke to me, coming to NUS and have a life mugging for good results under the environmental stress is not worth it; even if at the end of the day we might (not guaranteed) get good results, but how much have we sacrificed? Personally, it is never worth it to forego life's other pleasures just to get a decent CAP, but the environment here makes us all do so even if we do not want to mug like hell. I have to remind my brother to work harder and be more careful in this SPM to ensure he can get a scholarship to go to some western countries where the pace is more relaxed and mentality is more relaxing. I feel a talent like him is worth more than just an NUS student and go through the same thing as me. That is just me though.

In fact, I have just changed the "theme song" of my blog to Dido's 'Hunter'. You are listening to rambuTAN FM, with DJ RR in the house.. :P

Thursday, November 8, 2007

burnout signs

So how do you know if you, a loved one, or someone who reports to you is suffering from burnout? Here are the early warning signs.

Chronic fatigue - exhaustion, tiredness, a sense of being physically run down
Anger at those making demands
Self-criticism for putting up with the demands
Cynicism, negativity, and irritability
A sense of being besieged
Exploding easily at seemingly inconsequential things
Frequent headaches and gastrointestinal disturbances
Weight loss or gain
Sleeplessness and depression
Shortness of breath
Feelings of helplessness
Increased degree of risk taking

hmmm...i do match a few of those in this current situation :P

Friday, November 2, 2007


This holiday, a few things to do. I am so looking forward to it. Except for one moment.

So what am I gonna do? In no order of importance:

1. Exercise. Juggle between swimming, jogging, jungle trekking, futsal, weight training everyday. Must exercise everyday. Wont set any targets too soon. I will be back to my glory days.

2. Rest. It has been a tiring semester. 6 modules with a damn busy Arts GEM. Everday sleep after 2am. Stressed.

3. Watch some movies at the theatre. The darkness of the theatre is wonderful as it shuts us out from other troubles like a capsule.

4. Spend time with family. I want to make up fo time already lost away from home to NUS. How nice would it be if NUS was just in front of my doorstep. And the thing is, Johor is near but not near enough for me to go back everyday. Its like, so far yet so near, or so near yet so far.

5. Meet up with friends. One way is by playing more futsal with them. Too bad my regular swimming mate is back in UK liao..

and that ONE moment I dread most? Checking my semester scores. It is not that I have declared defeat even before the war has begun, but the way NUS delivers the results to students makes us damn stressful. A computer screen waiting to eat you up. Relatively scary to me lah, dunno about you guys tho. :P

Friday, October 19, 2007


1. The person who tagged you is:
got 2 ppl tag me leh. both girls samo. how lucky can a guy get? who ask me so popular? syen lo. haha..

2. Your relationship with him/her:

3. 5 Impressions you have of him/her:
-loves anime
-very mischeivious sometimes =.=
-the starter of the poke waist culture! haha..
-an Apple laptop owner wannabe lolx *runs*

4. Most memorable thing he/she has done for you:
cannot remember.

5. Most memorable words he/she said to you:
'u fat d'

[no.6 went missing]

7. If she becomes your lover, things she has to improved on will be:

8. If she becomes your enemy, you will:
run for my life cos she is gonna kill me man

9. If she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
dunno..... ==

10. The most desirable thing you want to do for her now is:
help her with her SS assignment. It seems to make her so stressed out! :)

11. Your overall impression of her is:
naughty and evil...can be helpful at times

12. How do you think people around you will feel about you:
dunno...fat? stressed out fella? in room guy?

13. The characteristic you love about yourself is:
once i set my mind to doing something,will try his very best.

14. The characteristic you hate about yourself is:
take things too seriously until feel damn stressed.

15. The most ideal person you want to be is:
contented person.

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them:
you all have been a part of my life, thnaks for moulding me into the person I am today.

17. Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you.
1. rachel
2. chubby
3. yi chin
4. james
5. alison
6. kai lin
7. suyin
8. weichuan
9. wen tak
10. George W. Bush

Who is no. 6 having relationship with:
with his school of fishes

Is no.9 male/female:

If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing:
yeah.....did i just hear another bomb in Iraq? XD

When you last chat with no 3.:
a month ago i think..

What kind of music that no 8 likes:

Does no.1 have any siblings:
yeah, one younger bro and one younger sis..

Will you woo no 3:
haha....if she is not attached, maybe I will. LOL..

How bout no 7:
erm..dun tink so.

Is no 4 single:
yes...although something is brewing up between him and someone else XD

What's the surname of no 5:
lai..come come..

What's the hobby of no 4:
erm...making mouses go defunc by clicking on it like 3000 times /day??

Do no 5 and 9 get along:
they don't know each other.

Where is no 2 studying at:
NUS...he is a Nut Under Stress lol.

Say something casual about no 1:
pretty girl with nice sense of

Have you tried developing feelings for no 8:
no leh i not gay..zzz

Where does no 9 live:

What color does no 4 like:
dunno leh. y ask me this kinda question? baka tagger... *runs*

Are no 5 and 1 best friends:
they dunno each other lah

Does no 7 like 2:
erm...maybe bah

How did you get to know no 2:
i found him in Chubbyland!

Does no 1 have any pets:

Is no 7 the sexiest person in the world:
haha.....she damn sexy one u kno :)