Three semesters on

I still dun think NUS is the place for me.

Competitive system here takes my life away from me, in both senses.

Exams are just a pain in the ass I have to face every sem.

I am not weak. I just do not like the way somethings are going around here. It irks me too much. It is not that I am inferior to anyone. I just dun enjoy this kinda life.

It is not that I am not destined for success. Success for me might come in other forms other than academics. Congrats if your CAP is higher than mine, just dont come and chuan in front of me this coming Christmas. If my feelings are still taken into consideration.

So what if exams are over? Another semester of complete chaos lies in front of me.

Sometimes I feel that some people around me do not understand me. I am not a complicated guy. I am not a two-faced asshole. I would despise myself if I am one.

I need to get a hold of myself before I can even consider taking care of another girl. Contrary to what many girls think a guy loves, I do not need someone who is submissive to my every needs; at the end of the day everyone needs their own personal space. I love a girl that speaks her mind, is opinionated, but puts her point across with enough finesse; essential quality for good marriage. I love a girl who cares enough about herself to dress well.

I should have known better than to let you go.

I should have known better than to allow myself to be blinded for a whole semesster and fall in love with someone else.

Too many should haves, too many 'if i did it...?'s.